Updates and a lot of bitching.

Well I have been M.I.A. lately. Well ok, not so much M.I.A. as I have been lazy. Life has been pretty dull since my last post. It's still the usual everyday grind; work, school, and having a long distance e-mail relationship with my husband. We are a little over 1/4th through this deployment and I am just over it. I hate to be a whiner, I know there are people who have it worse, but grrrr! I am just so exhausted with it all. Even though I am complaining, we have been really lucky with this deployment. We get to talk every day, almost all day. He is in a very safe place, doing a very safe job. But soon the communication is going to change. He is losing his personal internet and his shift is changing. We will still be able to talk. But no more webcam or skype. I KNOW! Beggers can't be choosers. But I got in to this routine and then it changes.

We just had our R&R about two weeks ago and it was FABULOUS! We ate out, went to the local casino area, and just hung out. It was a great vacation for both of us. The day he went back was just terrible! I slept the entire day to try to forget that I sent him back for the second time. R&R is really a rollercoaster of emotions. I got back in to the "house wife" routine to have it all taken away again. But I am glad he was atleast given the chance to come home.

Lately there have been some real issues with ignorance and just down right STUPIDITY on Twitter and Facebook. My husband is an enlisted soldier with 3 children that he supports and I work as a civilian contractor. We don't make a lot, but we do make enough. I am really tired of feeling like this isn't good enough! There are people out there that don't work, that live off of their husband's income and LIVE IT UP. They may not realize it, but they have a tendency to throw their "better than normal" things in others faces and not every now and then, but almost ALL the time! It is not necessary to post dollar amounts of the items you have purchased, bc you know it was expensive and people will be jealous. It is not necessary to complain that the extra forms of income are not enough for you and your "MUST HAVE" life style, knowing that it is more than what most people make in a month. I know how exciting and gratifying it is to work hard and buy that big ticket item. But when you aren't the one making the money for it and you are just being selfish, it isn't impressive. It's actually quite rude. I am in no way, saying I am always 100% considerate in this aspect. There are times that I get really excited about new purchases and want to flaunt them, who doesn't? But I make a point to not make it look like I am throwing it in people's faces. I don't talk about my husband's rank, I don't think it is necessary for people to know his pay grade, bc I know that there are people out there who's husband's are lower pay grades and it is rude to flaunt that. I just wish that people would think twice sometimes about what they say and do.

Another issue is the whining about separation! Again, I want to recognize that there are people out there who's husbands will be gone for much longer than mine, and those who don't get the luxury of talking to them every day like I do with mine. But we are all suffering the same thing. SEPARATION of THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of miles. I understand CQ duty, training weeks, and field time is a bummer. I hated that all when my husband was home in the states. But I realized it was just a couple to a few days and it is basically guaranteed he would be home. No matter how safe the job is on paper for a soldier who is down range, we all know that the likelihood of something TERRIBLE happening and him possibly not coming home. This chance is a lot greater than the likelihood of something happening while your husband keeps sluts out of the barracks for 24 hours. I cannot stand the "my life is over" bc my husband is going to be 30 miles away sitting at a desk for 24 hours, CRAP! It's especially rude when the majority of the people you converse with are those with deployed soldiers. It is like there is no remorse, no consideration. NOTHING! I am so tired of it!

I have a friend whose boyfriend leaves for a couple weeks at a time and comes home for a few days and goes back out. I am so jealous of her. I would take that over being separated for 10 months straight. But she is so considerate about it. I sympatize with her just as I would someone who hasn't seen their significant other for months. This is how the military spouse community should work. There isn't room for selfishness. We are all suffering and we need to realize this. I don't have the time to play "whose shit stinks more" with immature people anymore.

Now that I have bitched and complained enough for a life time, I will end with this.

As military spouses and girlfriends, we are all fighting the same fight, we all go through separation, but think... could it be worse? Because chance are it could be A LOT worse. Be considerate, don't fight with those who are living through the same struggles as you are, and be considerate of those who may be suffering more.